NEW XANGA

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this one just has a lot of bad memories.

                             Because of you....

                                                I am afraid.

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I have sat here typing and retyping what I want to say.
Forget it. // I've become comfortably numb.

Whatever tomorrow brings;;
                         

                            I'll be there with open arms 

                                                                 and open eyes.

Joke me something awful, just like kisses on the necks of best friends. <3

I've come to realize that I push a lot of people away.
I don't trust hardly anyone.
I hate a certain few whore faced cunts.
And if I could do things my way, I would eliminate the parts of my life that just fuck everything up.
I wish I had more self control and will power. That would probably help out a lot.
I can honestly say that out of everyone I talk to, I truely treasure only about 4.
I cannot wait to get out of high school.
I'm fucking sick of everyone and everything.
59 days until Florida.
It can't come quick enough.

My back is breaking from this heavy heart. We never seemed so far.  I'm hopelessly hopeful that you're just hopeless enough. But we never had it all...

I need a new job.
Qdoba is fucking me on hours.
Assholes.

Things are good.
I still eat though. And I need to stop doing that.
I look gross.

The boyfriend is fantastic.
He's amazing.
I've missed feeling this good.
I've missed him.

We're writing the words to the song we started years ago. <3